Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving Update

I'm thinking this post will just need to be a catch-up. I'm way behind...

When we graduated from BYU, we were really surprised when they sent us a wallet sized laminated copy of our diplomas... I couldn't think of a single situation where I would need my diploma at a second's notice. Well, until a few weeks ago when Ransom entered in a 3 on 3 grad student basketball tournament. They were really good, and I'm not gonna lie, Ransom was awesome! And they would have gotten 2nd place if the girls organizing the tournament would have had any idea how to put together a bracket. I almost went over to them with the pocket-sized diploma with the degree "Recreation Management" centered on the paper, flashing it like an FBI badge, knowing they would have taken one look at my degree and bowed down to my superiority in knowledge. I'm so glad my degree offers me real life application.

Now remember my post about the maintenance crew smashing our sliding glass doors? I can't prove it, but I just have to assume they also had something to do with this...

At least the neighborhood kids enjoyed it.

And the next weekend I had had enough sitting around. Ransom had to study (but that's not new) so I called up these girls (and baby Sam) and we drove up Mt. Lemon. Such a fun day trip! We drove through up and up and up until I was pretty sure we had left Arizona and landed in the great NorthWest! So many evergreens; I was in heaven! We stopped and had lunch in the cute little pizza parlor and then drove back down.

And then this past weekend, Mike drove down from Phoenix and we decided to explore more of the greater Tucson area. We found a trail leading up to a river. Or, what used to be a river and now is a small pond with spilled oil. Still fun!

We've had a fun few weeks in Tucson. It's so nice to be able to actually go outside again! You know, now that's it's only like 75 degrees.

Coming soon is our Thanksgiving road trip to LA and San Diego... which is where I'm currently writing from.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE! I know we ALL have something to be thankful for! :)

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

One Year Ago Today

This morning, I woke up a little before our alarm. I felt... strange. And suddenly I realized why. It was exactly one year ago today that I woke up a little before my alarm to take this...

...and was absolutely overjoyed; although completely shocked.

I realized that for the next year there are going to be a lot of "exactly one year ago today's" and I'm not sure how exactly to handle them. I'm sad because anniversaries remind me of what is missing in my life BUT at the very same moment, they remind me of what I DO have. I have the ability to get pregnant which I know not every woman is able to say. I have a perfect son who I will never have to worry about. I have knowledge of where he is that many of the parents in our support group would be healed so much to know. Basically, I have so much. And at times like the holidays, where it is SO easy to focus on my have-nots, I'm trying to count my have's instead.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Apparently I have no shame

Ransom has banned me from blogging again until I reveal my true self to the blogging community.

I'm not happy about this.

Let me preface by saying, I only get the hiccups like maybe twice a year. Which is a good thing... because they sound like this.

They literally have the magnitude to cause a whiplash! Apparently my hiccups have stage fright however, so this video really doesn't do them justice. But you can get the idea with the second clip; because ransom did some secret filming. So embarrassing.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Mr and Mrs Ryan Wells

My freshman year of college, I met this girl, Kelsey, who I thought was almost too hopelessly in love with her boyfriend, Ryan. I've never seen a couple so cheesy! Despite my initial feeling about their relationship, Kelsey and I became great friends and ended up living together for our sophomore year as well. I realized how pure her and Ryan's relationship was and I too began rooting for them. But tragedy struck the day that Ryan left for his 2 year mission to Mexico. I remember being genuinely worried about Kelsey's health the day he left. I've seen many, many girls send off their missionaries vowing to wait for them, but never in my life have I seen any girl half as loyal to her missionary as Kelsey. She wrote him over 2000 letters and emails! While I know some people might argue that in doing this she distracted Ryan from the work of his mission, both Ryan and his mission president have attested that her encouragement helped Ryan become an amazing missionary.

Ever since I told Kelsey and my other old roommates I was pregnant, and that I would be moving away from Utah before we had him, we began planning the day when they would get to meet Jonah; at Kelsey and Ryan's wedding. We talked about it all the time and I even bought Jonah a little sweater-vest suit to wear at the reception. You can imagine then, how hard it was to go through Jonah's clothes, find that suit and realize that I would have to make the trip by myself.

At the end of August, Ryan finally returned home and proposed to Kelsey within the week! Two months later, was the big day, and even though I feared it, I decided I wasn't going to let my grief get in the way of the celebration. I asked Jonah to come on the trip with me; even if he couldn't wear his suit. From the moment I left our apartment, I felt like Jonah was by side and even though I wasn't getting to show him off the way I had imagined, I felt peace just knowing he was with me.

All throughout the weekend, I felt Jonah was by my side. Even during the wedding ceremony (which if he were alive, he wouldn't have been able to go to). It was such a blessing. My sweet friends were wonderful about it too and let me share stories and pictures. I assumed everyone would be so excited about the wedding and forget who we had planned would be there, but they didn't. I have such thoughtful friends.

I am so glad I didn't back out of going; thinking it would be too hard, because I gained a new insight about Jonah that I wouldn't have otherwise. I believe that Jonah is a missionary right now. And that just as Kelsey and Ryan were finally reunited after what felt like an eternity, so will Jonah and I. I got to see the sheer joy in Kelsey and Ryan's eyes as they were sealed together for eternity and I know that relatively soon, I too will have that look in my eyes when I am handed back by sweet baby boy, knowing that we will never be separated again. I am so grateful to Kelsey for being such a great example of patience. And also for taking the time of her separation to not only wait, but to better herself. Now I know what being reunited looks like, and it has helped motivate be to be the best self I can for my little boy.

I'm so glad I went to Utah and got to witness the most beautiful wedding I've ever seen! I am so happy for Kelsey and Ryan and am grateful for their examples! Congratulations Mr and Mrs Wells!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010


I pulled up at a stoplight and had to turn my head to figure out which car beside me was blasting "Thriller". It turned out to be an easy ID.

Notice this woman is at least 60.

Tucson never fails to surprise me.