Tuesday, April 19, 2011

To My Friends...

I don't know what I would do without my friends. I feel like all throughout my life I have always been blessed to find wonderful friends where ever I lived. I really can't think of a time where I felt like I had no one to call when I needed to talk, no one to whine to when things got hard or no one to laugh with when I made a fool of my self. I know not everyone is so lucky and I am grateful that I have been.

Loosing Jonah is the absolute hardest thing I have ever had to get through. And I use the term "get through" on purpose because it's not something that would be possible to "get over". That is the hardest thing about this specific trial; I have never had a lifelong pain before. For as long as I live, I will always miss my baby. I will always find myself waking up in the night crying for him and I will always daydream about holding him.

Before Jonah I definitely found myself wondering why parents of passed-away children couldn't "get over" it after a year or so. I think I thought they didn't have very much faith if they still felt a reason to mourn years later. How unbelievably insensitive of me! And because I know how I felt before I experienced it, it makes me sooo grateful to have friends and family who don't roll their eyes when I bring up Jonah too much. And who don't make me feel uncomfortable when I can't hold back my tears in front of them. Even when I do it over and over. For me, the best friends are those who can just listen, emphasize and most importantly, not judge.

So thank you, wonderful friends! This is my tribute to you!

Monday, April 11, 2011

It's Official

I'm coming home for the summer! Ransom scored an awesome internship with two bankruptcy judges in Tacoma and for a while we were thinking that I would stay here during that time and work my buns off. But after lots of pro and con lists, long talks and frequent prayers, we feel it's best for me to quit my job (with the hope that they will hire me back in August) and go home with him. We will be living at my parent's house again to save money and since no one wants to hire us for 3 months, I'm looking for jobs I can do for the summer.

SO, if you know someone in the University Place area who needs a:

a. Nanny
b. Babysitter
c. Care giver
d. Home cleaner
e. Organizer
f. Financial planner
G. Secretary/Clerical assistant

PLEASE send them my way! :)

Saturday, April 2, 2011

RIP Acer

To my good friend, Acer,

Everyone told me you were a bad investment and a waste of money. They told me you would break down and abandon me. But did I listen? No. We had a special bond and I knew that you were not the piece of junk others described you as. You were my roommate, my picture holder, and medium to write and turn in way too many essays late into the night.

And while it's sad to see you make your journey into the land of broken dreams, I have to smile and say thank you. Thank you for waiting until after I graduated to crash and burn; taking all of my papers, pictures and music with you. Thank you for being so slow and ugly looking that no one cared to steal you. And mostly, thank you for giving me notice enough to save a few valuables onto my email.

Acer, you were a great investment, no matter what they all say... and I will miss you.